I’ve dated enough to know what I don’t like. The idea if “my type” is constantly evolving. Things that turn me off, annoy me, or things I could just do without. Some things are just gross or unacceptable. I’ve dated the crazy girl, the clingy girl, the emotionally distant, the rebellious girl, the hippie, and others. A few more meaningful than others, but most of them ending for the same reasons.
Bottom line is, she has to have a personality. Someone who can hold a conversation. Someone with diverse interests, ambitions, goals. Someone who challenges me, and isn’t afraid to call me on my bullshit. Someone who will punch me in the arm when I’m being an idiot and will hold me up when I’m feeling discouraged. Someone makes me want to be a better person. That inspires me to do things I never thought possible. Playful personality with the ability to have a serious and meaningful conversation. Someone who knows the worst side of me and still loves me. Someone not afraid to open up and tell me what she’s feeling. Somebody I can trust more than anyone else in the world.
It’s stupid… or may seem so, but that’s just really not good enough… it’s really mostly about how we connect. How she makes me feel, how I make her feel. Like a little while ago, I met someone. Her smile lights up any room she walks into. She’s absolutely the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever met, and it feels like our personalities just fit together. An overwhelming attraction. I could just sit and look into her eyes all day and every time I think about her or say her name I can’t help but smile. When I’m around her, I get intense butterflies that make me want to throw up and spontaneously combust.
I find it hard to play nonchalant around her. She flusters me. Throws me off balance every chance she gets. She inherently knows how to get under my skin as if she’s purchased real estate there and has become a permanent resident. She somehow just knows what buttons to push and loves to torment me. She’s got me hooked and I’m finding it impossible to resist regardless of how likely (or unlikely) we are to become anything.
She’s the definition of my type at this moment. Whatever that means. She just feels right. That’s my type.